I have turned to substance abuse ocasionally to wipe out the thoughts of this guy. I know that’s bad.

The only thing I have learned to deal with this thought that won’t leave is to accept it and let it reside in my mind without judging it. It’s kind of like learning to deal with chronic pain. I do try to meditate with relaxing music and practicing mindfulness, when you just watch your thoughts float by.

Another thing I learned about myself is I derive pleasure from thinking about this guy and the past when I had this kind of young innocence, since he was my real first love. I think I am really focused on the past, and going back to that time. I try to keep constantly busy, work a full time job, going to school to get my bachelors degree, have hobbies of gardening and making jewelry – have even thought about starting an online jewelry business. But at the end of the day, I still think about this guy. I am so pathetic.

freedom in bliss, as you become free you can start to work on your self.

seek out help, dont stop till you find it, and then keep going, beat the depression underneath too, with a self worth journey.
its done, i am on the last hurdle looking down on my ocd, which has nearly been completely demolished. it takes patience but keep the faith and you’l get there

o yea an take the meds. chlomi[pramine on a higher dosage is really great, see past the drowsiness and use it as a tool, a v big one on the journey

I was under CBT and homeopath medicines…all this were just giving me a reactive approach to OCD’s symptoms….Homeopathy medicines are infact giving me a confidence that some day I will be relieved from OCD…

But the true instrument is MINDFUL-MEDITATION. I underwent a pranayama yoga course and in that they taught meditation which is just a 15-min period when I just have to observe the thoughts without any judgement. I might sound very idealistic. the problem with OCD is that it doesn’t allow us to be non-judgmental…ifact in pure o, we become the thoughts themselves. My guru told me that just switch off the intelect and observe all thoghts/doubts without any anxiety. When I practised this, I realized I could not stop being anxious, later I understood to even watch the anxiety as just another entity in my mind. Later my guru told that my intention to not to let anxiety ios what causing more anxiety. He asked me to accept every thing in my mind, right from small sounds to bizzare thoughts (porn, sexual, panic, incestual thoughts)….every thing. Then I understood to just watch everything and realized that mind is just a tool to act in this Life.

I still might hace tendancy to become OCD…the meditation right now helps me in just refreshing my mind..like it erases the anxiety….I become anxious due to some experiences in my day to day life. But meditation just helps me to accept that. The mantra is OKAY to be NOT OKAY.

Just wanted to share

Pure o OCD is just fear.. it is not the real you. It is the opposite of you. People with pure o are always the most sensitive nice people. It is the fear which ruins them. I understand the mental pain behind it. But it is just fear.

God is universal. God can read all our minds. There are no secrets. None of you should feel scared. Anyone off the street should be able to read eachother’s minds. You should have nothing to hide if you just have fear. There is no pleasure in fear, pure o just produces pain.. don’t give in to it, everything about it is wrong, it is error, a lie, not the real you, it can be eliminated and destroyed. They are just thoughts you will never actually go out and hurt someone. Don’t let the pure o convince you into what it wants.. it will try and let you believe in those fears (people then start checking themself etc and believing in their pure o fears are true) it is a horrible mental illness, pure o is NOT true people with pure o deep down KNOW THIS. Pure o just produces pain. people who hurt, attack, sexually assault people are the OPPOSITE of pure o they don’t get pain or feel bad from what they do they don’t have pure o they are actually sick people not the people with pure o.. people with pure o are the most sensitive moral people it’s a shame the fears cause them so much pain. God knows the real us. Don’t be scared by your fears. They are just fears.. pure o does the exact opposite of what you actually are. Don’t feel bad of having pure o it just means you fear bad things i know it’s a horrible thing to have but at the end of the day it is just fears and your pure o is not the real you. People with pure o you know what your real self is it is GOOD, don’t let the fears hurt, damage, lie or cause anymore pain to you, don’t get self doubts from your fears, fear is not reality. Cast out the fear, get rid of it. You can destroy the fear. Love cures all. God bless.

I identify strongly with this disorder but I am unsure if this is really the one I have. I’ve definitely got something, that’s for sure, but my symptoms don’t match these EXACTLY. I ruminate on things and can’t seem to let go, mostly with guilt and self-worth. Other things are hard to let go of as well. Do my symptoms match this or would it be a more general obsessive disorder? I definitely don’t have traditional OCD.

I chose to write today, not to offer any particular insight, as many of you seem to have a deep understanding of the difficulties posed by this sometimes debilitating condition. However, it just struck me as i was reading through the posts that in some ways researching POCD and subscribing to forums like these has for me become a kind of anxiety relieving ritual. Would anyone share this opinion about their own motivations for posting?